- I agreed to lead a mom's group in town, terrifying. ;) Although I love fellowship with women and even though I would classify myself as more of a one-on-one person I am excited for this opportunity, for growth and for learning and making friends with new women!
- T and I have been really off for the last week and I feel at a bit of a loss. We just are butting heads A LOT and I feel often more frustrated with him then not. We have cut out movies (even though they were always very minimal already) all together, increased reading time together while S naps, tried to engage him more in everyday activities alongside me. Yet he is restless, whiny, won't play well on his own. I don't know I'm just at a bit of a loss. Am going to start out each day in prayer with him this week and work on lots of affirmation and affection on random occasions, but other then that I am not sure what else to do. Sometimes I feel like his is tired of these four walls, and his toys and I wish I could send him outside more. I do love this sensitive little soul though, he sure knows how to give a good cuddle and I love that he loves books!
- Sometimes I struggle with the place we live in and sometimes I love it. My ideas about houses has changed tons since we first got married, and we have been thankful for this apt. but I long for a yard for my kids, and I get tired on the upstairs and downstairs haul all the time. There doesn't seem to be an end in sight at this point. On the other hand, it is totally manageable for cleaning and that is so great. It's a small space to keep up so I don't often feel overwhelmed by the tasks.
- SO ready to be pregnant with baby number 3, working on remembering to wait on God. After what felt like the loooong with S I feel like I trust Him more that his timing is perfect, I do believe that. Just hard somedays when you really feel like you just want to know there is a little person growing inside you. I hope His timing is soon ;)
- I haven't lost all my weight from Soren and it is hard. I don't feel good about myself or how I look. I hate being in pictures and I am sure I look 5months pregnant. I feel that it is as simple as going off grains, but that's not simple at all when it is all you know how to cook with. I am the first to admit that I am not a cook. I can keep my house clean, but don't ask me to cook you a meal or I will seriously have nightmares about it. I hate cooking and I hate that I feel like I am feeding my family junk all the time. I feel that I know a lot about food and nutrition and what is good for you and what isn't, but I just don't know where.to.start!!! It doesn't help that all we could afford most of the summer was pasta noodles and had to eat at the in-laws a lot. (Who don't eat/like most veggies, just meat and potatoes) I can't overhaul all at once, but I can only imagine how good my family and myself would feel if we cut out lots of the starch and grains we eat. But I don't want to spend all day in the kitchen either. Anyway, just kind of at a loss and I know I won't probably loose anymore weight until something gives in the kitchen.
- Here is mister happiness. Since the day he was born to now, he is just laid back and happy. He loves a good game, loves to chase balls around, has the occasional little fit, and is so easy to love.
Time to go rest now for the full week ahead. Looking forward to THANKSGIVING!!
