So things have settled here a bit. We have had a few nights to sleep on the shocking news from Thursday and although the emotions are still a bit raw for us we both have prayed for God's peace in our hearts and feel he has answered our request.

For the first time since I started writing out my 1000 gifts, it has taken effort to sit down and make myself think on His gifts. Not because they aren't there, because we see MANY ways that God is very present, but it was choosing to focus on that rather then choosing to wallow, and focus on the negative. It is amazing how narrow minded we can become in such a short time when we allow sin an avenue. But I just want to share some of that list tonight, because God is so so good, not just because of circumstances, but because of who he is, in the happy and the sad times.

- A husband who is committed to integrity.
- A husband who takes seriously the need to provide and refuses to sit and stew even if he has reason too.
- A husband who wants to take the high road, even when his wife wants to take the low one. ;)
- A God who is present
- Psalm 16
- God's word committed to memory to draw on anytime anywhere when sin desires to reign in the mind
- Financial provision for our basic needs that gives us a little time to reevaluate where we are going long term
- A sense of peace
- A currently self employed friend who asked Brian to come spend the day with him to help take his mind off the heaviness
- Meals with friends
- Friends who get movies for us to make us laugh and lighten the mood
- A pretty orange plant given to cheer me up
- Wise words from dear saints
- Prayers over the phone
- Lord willing a month to go travel and see family
- The chance to look forward to getting away and having time to re-evaluate our future

I could probably add more but that's lots for now.
We are actually really excited that we are going to go away for the month of May. It's crazy cause we have never gone on a trip for that long, but we have been planning on going to my cousins wedding at the beginning on May anyway in Montana, and then we were going to go see my bro and his family in June but we are just going to combine the two so that if B starts a new job we don't have to ask for time off right away. So it will be sweet to take a month and travel to places we have always wanted to see. So another blessing in disguise.

Anyway, I need to go to bed, but I wanted to write these things down in this my on-line journal.
And well, I just can't close this without a fun picture of our boys..